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Separation with your Kiddo

I have experienced the most painful thing that happened in my life.

The pain is more than just being heartbroken during teenage years, separation from parents after choosing my husband, more than losing a friend.

I have been with my daughter since she was born. I was also given up my teaching career in a Montessori School just to bear her in my tummy. I have also spent a year after giving birth just to take care of her and breastfed her 24 hours a day. Then I was given a chance to work since my husband lose his job. A lot of trials came into my life just to have her, and now given by chance, she was not here in our side.

It is quite different not to have her. I have spent all my energy, love and time to work for her to have a good life. Good thing my husband is willing to take good care of our daughter while I am at work. Few months later, he grabbed the chance to take TESDA course at University of Makati. I am proud of my husband because he is not ashamed to bring with him our daughter to school.

A month ago, my husband applied for a job and luckily he got the offer as a Computer Teacher in a private school in Makati. The hard part is that no one will take care of her here in Makati. Our last option at that time was to sent her in Bulacan.

I have sleepless nights because she was to vulnerable and so precious. All my thoughts was to her. I was even mindless to study more, work harder or be a better wife. Everything that I do was now pointless for me. As if I am living for nothing.

It is really hard to work, study, work, study, be a housewife without her. My heart really breaks into two without her. It was too painful and too emotional to let her leave in such a young age.

That is why I decided not to attend my TCP class yesterday just to be with her. I even took a picture of us. Have a glimpse..


I am praying to God to help me bear the pain. For me to be better in doing my job, improve my concentration in studying, to be a better wife to my spouse and to be a better person, to learn to love myself more.

I am also praying to give me guidance on how could I surpass this trial. 

Separation with your kiddo? Pray hard and good things will come.



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